For some reason today is a really down day for me. I’m just so tired of everything. This moving things is really putting me down a lot and it seems that now is the time when I am questioning myself on if I really am doing the right thing. Or not even that, I’m questioning on what can I accomplish by going through with it. It is very likely the right thing, but it is also a very hard thing to do.
Today everything just seems so dark. I just want to pull the covers over my head and not get up at all. Just be all alone with myself for a day. Come to think of it has been a long time since I have actually spent a whole day without anyone else. I really would need that just to clear my thoughts. Or maybe not so much my thoughts, I think I would have to go through my feelings. Those are the real mess these days. I really need to sort them out.
This is one of those days when the thought of having to get up tomorrow feels like too much. I just want to take the easy way out and not to do anything to make my life even harder as it is right now. Oh well, not going to happen. I wonder how am I going to get through all this.