It looks like spring is finally here. The sun is shining, the snow is melting and Easter is just around the corner. And my life seems to be in a standstill situation, once again.
I know that I really need to find joy in life. It’s just so very hard. I just seem to drift from one day to another without any purpose. Ok, let’s correct the first sentence: I need to find purpose in my life. Everything seems so meaningless. What is the point of getting though yet another day?
Instead of solving the problem I spend considerable amount of time trying to forget. I’m happiest when I manage to forget what a mess my life (and my house in the matter of fact) is. So that means I’m quite happy for about two hours a week when I go riding. This week was especially good, I really felt that I have learned something in the two years I have been going there. Yeah! And, now that I have said that, most likely next week is a total disaster.
The other thing that keeps my mind off my miserable life is WoW. I have to admit that I’m completely addicted to it. But it helps me to forget. That is why I do it, at the expense of the house deteriorating around me. There is a show in TV where they clean up really messy and dirty houses. I watched it a bit yesterday and thought that at least our house is in a bit better shape. Not much, but a bit.
Well, time to go. I still need to get groceries and feed the family. I can get through the basics, it’s just all the other stuff that is not getting done…