I used to think that I’d be willing to try donor gametes if I only had the money to do so. Now I suddenly have enough money for it, but I’m finding myself reluctant to even consider it anymore. A year and a half ago after my last failed cycle I would have jumped in joy if I had had the money to start a new cycle asap.
Now I’m not so sure that I’d be willing to go back. And if you have been reading long enough (if not, you can check category IVF #7), we do not know if it’s DH’s sperm that sucks or my eggs. And even if it was one of them back then, who knows what might be the situation now. After all, I’m going to be 38 in just a few days. How did I get to be that old???
I don’t know what is going to happen. I’m not so sure I’m willing to go through yet another (failed) cycle. Because, as we all know, there are no guarantees in this game called the IVF rollercoaster. Right now I’m feeling that it would just be a colossal waste of time, money and mental health – not that things have been too great up until now either.