One step forward, two steps back

Yeah, I knew it was too good to be true anyway. This is getting ridiculous. If I was not the one living in this strange hell, I would think that somebody is making this all up. But no, this is my life right now.

So what happened, you ask. Shit happened. My dad was taken back to the hospital late on Friday evening. Yes, that is right, just hours after that last post where I said that things are looking good again. For now there is no knowledge on what caused this or how long he has to stay there. So the scenery is not completely white anymore, I found a hole in the ice and the water seems so black. So frigging black.

And when I came to work on Monday someone had broken the lid of my heating pole. I do not know if those exist elsewhere, but here they really are needed when the winter comes. My car is old, so it will not start if the temperature drops below -15C without heating. So these poles are there to keep your car warm during your day at work. It seems to be still working, but I have no idea how long. When the -30C days come, I might not get home from work. Shit. I complained about it and now I’m hoping it gets fixed.

My former lifeline BB is no longer the way to turn. My only favorite was voted out last Sunday. I can not understand people! Why would they want to vote out a person who shows her feelings openly and cares for others. She was always the one to go and comfort others when they were feeling bad. And when she was feeling bad nobody came. The house is now empty as far as I am concerned!

It’s always like this. I find myself on the side of a person that is really hated by some people. And I can really not understand why. Last year my favorite in BB was Timo. For some reason he was also hated a lot. The only reason I could find for that was that some people had decided that he is gay but not coming out of the closet. Even though he was the one that was responsible for the sex when in the house – yes, with a female contestant. And I did not get a gay vibe from him at all. I’m not saying that you can always tell who’s gay and who is not. But to me it was pretty evident that he was not. Yes, he did have some feminine qualities, but that does not automatically make you gay!

The other example I have talked about a lot is Clay. Yet another one that is being accused of being gay and refusing to come out of the closet. What is wrong with people? Why are they so fucking in interested if a person they do not know and most likely never will is fucking men or women? Watch this and tell me again that he is gay. Holy shit that man is hot. And funny. Even though I was pretty down yesterday these made me laugh: Funny clips 1 and Funny clips 2 (sorry, did not manage to embed them here. Does anybody know how to embed YouTube code here? When I copy the line from the site it just messes everything!!)

So now it seems that the one that I least want to win BB is going to. And it sucks. This man has been the favorite to win for a long time and for the life of me I can not understand why. He is ugly, he thinks he is funny as hell but his stories are disgusting. He keeps making bad jokes about animals, racist jokes, women… the list goes on. I can give you some examples of what he has said. Warning! These stories are not for everyone. If you think that you will be offended, stop reading now.

First, let’s get an example of a racist joke. I can not remember it exactly, but it went something like this: A white child dies and goes to white heaven and gets a pair of white wings and becomes an angel. A black child dies and goes to black heaven and gets a pair of black wings. What does this child become: a bat!

And it seems that he does not have the slightest clue on how to handle women. He has said himself that he collects “adult entertainment” which is at least here just a fancy name for porn. So all his knowledge about sex with women seems to come from this kind of “educational” movies. One day he told a story where he was “making love” to a woman that ended in him spraying his sperm on the woman’s face. Yes, I know that happens in the movies, but in real life – not so much. Then at one point he was thinking about making a porn film himself. It was just the casting he was thinking that went badly overboard: twelve year old girls in latex outfits…

Last, but not least let’s cover the animal stories. One of the first he told was that if you want to fuck a guinea pig you first have to wrap duct tape around it, because otherwise it will burst. Well, I think everyone understood that it is not likely something he had actually done. But another story was in my mind much more disturbing, as it sounded like it did happen. He has snakes as a pet. He was telling about a friend who had snakes, too. I think we all know that snakes eat other animals as food, so that is not what is disgusting in this story. Here it is quite normal that people give kittens away for free, as few people care to neuter their pets, especially in the countryside. So this person looked at the newspapers to see if any kittens were available, called the numbers and sent her younger sister to collect the kittens. Then he would turn heavy music on really loud and feed the kittens to the snake alive. The music was on to keep the neighbors from hearing the screams of the kitten when eaten.

And this man is believed to become the winner of Finnish BB 2006. Excuse me while I puke.


One response to “One step forward, two steps back

  1. Just to let you know that there are people out here who to some exrent understand what you’re going through. I throw a few fucks about too.

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